On Recovery

Am rather apprehensive about going back to school.
What am I going to wear? The cast or shoes?
Can I climb stairs in shoes?
How am I going to teach without standing?
How am I going to ferry my teaching apparatus?
How am I going to open the doors?
How am I going to do my every hour physio?
Just thinking about all these problems makes my leg throb...

There is a cycle which I have noticed with that damn leg.
It always appears to be better after a visit to the hospital.
The day after we went for a routine checkup, it was sturdy and happy. And I can walk in shoes for a whole day. And then, because of this delusion caused overworked stress, it simply deteriorates in later days, forcing me to go back on cast.
The day after we went for physio, the same thing happen. It was tough and strong. I can even put full weight on it when I walk. And then the next day. Bam.
I don't know what to do with it.
Fervently wishing for the day when I can walk unaided to arrive...